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Tuesday, February 8, 2005
You are doing
1: Listening to music
2: Thinking about Jon
3: Thinking about life
Things you hear
1: Music
2: Dog barks
3: Typing on the keyboard
Things You See
1: Computer
2: Phone
3: Glass of Juice
Things on your desk
1: Phone
2: Glass of Juice
3: Cell Phone
Things You are Thinking About
1: Jon
2: Mom
3: Dad
First three teachers that come to your mind
1: Radford
2: Boisvert
3: Yarworth
Teachers You Like
1: Angela
2: Goodwin
3: Baca
Favorite movies
1: The Notebook
2: How to lose a guy in 10 days
3: Under the Tuscan sun
Favorite colors
1: Yellow
2: Pink
3: Light blue
Last three places you’ve been to
1: AC Moore
2: CVS
3: KP
Last three people you've seen
1: Jon
2: Mom
3: Lindsey
Lucky numbers
1: 43
2: 7
3: I only have two
Best friends
1: Katie Whiton
2: Tricia Gately
3: Stacey Tassinari
Favorite foods
1: Salad
2: Chicken
3: Pizza
Things you love
1: Flowers
2: Sun
3: Dance
Things you hate
1: When people ruin you’re life without even realizing it. (Don’t worry, if your reading this, I can PROMISE that its not you.)
2: When people lie and deceive
3: Munching and Grammar mistakes
People you love
1: Jon Gutlon
2: Katie Whiton
3: Tricia Gately
People you hate
1: I don’t hate people, I hate things ABOUT people.
2: If I was to hate a person, it would be KELLY
3: Or maybe half the FHS population
People you would die for
1: Jon
2: Katie Whiton
3: Tricia Gately
People that would die for you
1: I don’t know.
2:
3:
People you could not live without
1: GOD
2: Jon
3: Katie
People who could not live without you
1: I don’t know.
2:
3:
Most missed people
1: Adelaide
2: Kiely
3: MEMA
Favorite actors/actresses
1: Julia Roberts
2: Jim Carey
3: Adam Sandler
Favorite classes
1: Psych
2: English
3: Creative Writing
Last website's you've visited
1: Live Journal
2: Dead Journal
3: Excite
Favorite sports
1: Dance (I like to dance)
2: Baseball (I like to WATCH baseball)
3: Football (I like to WATCH football)
Favorite places
1: New Hampshire/Maine/Cape Cod
2: My Church
3: The secret spot in my back yard…:-D
Last 3 books you've read
1: Hamlet (school book, do spark notes count?)
2: The Chosen (again…school book)
3: I forget
Friends that you used to be close with but are not anymore
1: Ashlie Cottuli
2: Heather Sterling
3: Ashley Olbrys
Last 3 people you've hung out with
1: Tricia Gately
2: Matt Bravo
3: Jon Gutlon
Things you are wearing
1: Blue and white striped tank top
2: Pajama Pants
3: FHS sweatshirt
Last 3 chores you have done
1: Cleaned the house
2: Packed up the Christmas stuff
3: Started to clean the basement
Last three things you have cried over
1: Absolutely nothing
2: My family situation going completely downhill
3: Not knowing, not understanding, not caring, but wanting to…
Last three things that you've laughed about
1: Stuff that Jon says
2: Mary peeing on Katie’s leg
3: Mrs. Connolly being RETARTED
Last three things that you smiled about
1: Jon
2: Almost vacation
3: The notebook comes out today!
Last three things that you were mad about
1: People who think they are funny, but they really aren’t
2: My mom…actually, both my parents
3: Not being allowed to do the things I want to do.
Favorite songs
1: Feels Like Home
2: Broken
3: I Could Not Ask for More
Favorite singers/bands
1: Finger 11
2: Maroon 5
3: Switchfoot
Last three things you have done
1: Woke up
2: Showered
3: Cleaned the house
Favorite vacation spots
1: Cape Cod
2: New Hampshire
3: Maine
Last 3 vacations you have been to
1: Cape Cod
2: New Hampshire
3: Maine
Last 3 things you've touched
1: Key Board
2: Mouse
3: My hair
Favorite rooms of the house
1: My room
2: Family room
3: Computer room
Favorite electronical devices
1: Computer
2: Cell phone
3: Straightener
Your future goals
1: Become a Psychologist
2: Finish college with all degrees
3: Start a family
Things you want to do before you die
1: See the world
2: Save a life
3: Complete all of my goals
Last 3 schools you have been to
1: FHS
2: KP
3: SC
Favorite restaurants
1: Tom’s Tavern
2: James Roadside Cafe
3: Tyler’s Restaurant
Favorite months
1: April
2: July
3: September
How old do you wish you were?: 17
Where were you when 9/11 happened?: English Freshman Year
What do you do when vending machines steal your money?: Push the coin button that gives you the money back in coins? Or go to another one…
Do you consider yourself kind?: I try to be
When you see a homeless person on the side of the road, what do you think: How lucky I am
If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?: haha, you sure you want to know?
If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?: Español
Do you know your neighbors?: Yes, unfortunately
What are your 3 current obsessions?: haha, you sure you want to know?
What do you consider a vacation?: Anywhere away from home
Whose shoes do you wish you could walk in?: My mom’s
Do you follow your hororscope?: No, but they’re fun to look at
Are you in love with someone?: Yes
Does this person know?: Yes
Would you move for the person you loved?: Yes
Are you touchy feely?: Yes
Do you believe that opposites attract?: Yes
Do you believe in soul mates?: Yes
Dream job?: Working with people, serving the community
Dream car?: Dodge Neon
Favorite dish?: Anything chicken
Favorite place to go on weekends?: Anywhere, as long as I’m out with friends or family
Showers or Baths?: Shower
Do you paint your nails?: Yes
Who would you marry right this second?: Yes
What do you like the most about yourself?: The fact that I’m not perfect
What do you like the least?: The fact that I can’t do and be and understand everything
Do you trust people easily?: Yes (not always a good quality)
Do you live alone?: No, I wish.
What truly frightens you?: Making mistakes that can’t be fixed
What are your phobias?: Heights
Do you want kids?: Yes of course!
Do you believe in happily ever after?: Yes
Favorite fairy tale?: All of them :-D
Do you keep a handwritten journal?: Yes
Why do you have a live journal?: Something to do
Where would you rather be right now?: with Jon
Who would you like to be more honest with?: My mom
Who makes you feel guilty?: People that shouldn’t
Are you a heavy or light sleeper?: Heavy
Are you a good dancer?: I like to think so
Are you paranoid?: Yes
Are you impatient?: Yes
Who can you relate to better: mom or dad?: Neither
Would you ever have plastic surgery?: No
Would you ever break the law? Under what circumstance?: Yes, and I don’t know, when its something minor and you know you can get away with it, or when it’s an emergency
Do you believe in the afterlife?: Heaven? Yes
Do you believe in the loch ness monster?: The what?
Glad its Over?: Not really, I’ve got nothing left to do.
Saturday, January 22, 2005
I have a question:
How can it be the best time of your life, but at the same time the worst?
*Sigh*
I haven't written in a while, so let me update you...
Good: Jon and I have been together for about 3 months. It has honestly been the best three months of my life. I've never met anyone so caring, and interested in my life, and funny, and understanding, and sensitive, and honest. I've never met anyone who genuinely cares like he does. It's going to be one of those things that lasts forever. Whether we are dating or not, its going to be a life time affair. He's AMAZING. Sure, we've had our share of ditches in the road, but we got here...together. Tricia and Matt are together! I'm just glad that shes not with Mike. Matt's a good kid, he just needs some reminders every once in a while, but then again, don't we all? It's been a wild ride, but the four of us get a long real well. It's been interesting, to say the least...but very, very fun. I can't wait until summer! Katie Whiton has been UnBeLiEvAbLe! What an awesome friend! I'm so lucky to have her! I don't know what I'd do without her undying love and support and faith in me. She's my voice of wisdom, like my gardian angel, my saving grace. And Stacey is my hero! She's been there when no one else was. When I need something, she is always there to help. Perhaps its because she knows what I'm going through, and can relate. We've had rocky relationships (or lack there of) with our parents...and its nice to know that theres someone out there who can relate. She's helped me in more ways than she knows. :) Tricia's been great! She's always there to make me laugh, and to really listen and help me through whats going on...shes excellent and helping me back up when i've hit rock bottom. Just a smile helps me to keep going. Just knowing all we've been through together makes it a little earier. I'm so comfortable with her..."I-could-shit-in-the-middle-of-the-road-with-you-right-next-to-me" comfortable. (haha, that's a katie and alex thing...) It's great to know you've got people you can cry in their arms for hours and they don't mind seeing you with eye liner dripping down your face. And Jon, He's been the best thing that could have ever happened to me right now. I've got someone to rely on who would do just about anything for me. Its great to be loved, by friends! :)
Bad: As much as I'm loving the friend aspect of life, the family situation is going no where but down hill. It sucks to realize that your dad doesnt give a shit about you. When he doesnt care enough to pay attention that his oldest daughter is locked out of the house, and calling for 15 minutes in the freezing cold, unfamiliar back of the appartment at 11:30 pm. It sucked. THANKS for NOTHING. And simply watching me leave...no, not even watching me leave...watching TV. Didn't even come after me, or tell me not to leave; not even caring enough to call my cell phone...instead he decides to call my mom. That really shows how in control of the situation he is, right? Gosh. And treating me like i'm 10? Thats not working out, and being selfish, and rude, and stubborn...its not cool. Trying to talk things out with that man is like talking to a wall...not too successful. Mom is all over the place, she doesnt have a clue what planet shes on. Shes up, shes down, shes like a freakin one woman circus! (-How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days) Oh boy. You never know which side of her your going to get. No consistancy. I'm sick of waiting around for them to figure out what they're going to do with their lives. It's my senior year, I'm a responsible 17 year old. I think I can handle myself. Whatever. And school? The maturaty level is a...uh..negative 7? Yeah, thats about right. The work load, is ridiculous. Tests and quizes every other day...its not cool. I don't like it, one bit. I'm a senior people! Cut me some slack! GRR. WHATEVER.
I'm ready for summer, at least till I'm 18. That would be nice. :) Or even February vacation! Anything! A snow day! (*wishfull thinking*)
Anyway- that's my story. Thank you come again!
-Me
Current mood:  confused
Wednesday, September 8, 2004
So school has started, so that's good I suppose. I really don't feel like writting in here...Usually I do, but I've been writting so much since the start of school, so...I'd rather not. I guess this is just to let you know that I am still alive. heh. For the most part. JOSH WORKS AT MY WORK. I don't know how I feel about that yet. We'll see. Hmm...well I'm out, nice talking to you! Love Yas! ~JSTEW
Saturday, August 28, 2004
It's 10 am. I've been up since 6:11. Yes, 6:11. Pat left for Bryant this morning...so I went to his house to give him the note I wrote him. I'm going to miss him soooo much...I know he's only a phone call...er...half hour away...but that's so far after being 10 minutes down the road for so long. :( Sad face. I don't know what to do with my life now. Ok, so let me see...some interesting things to write in here. (It's about time, huh?) Let's see...I hung out with Tricia the other day...I brought Dunkies to her house, we went for a walk, talked about...just about everything...had an awesome time just hanging out. Then I came home, went to work...then had an intersting night...I went to the Dunkies in Plainville...Stood in the parking lot for a half hour with Liam and his friends, then left. I met Stace and Katie at Friendly's where Rudolfo (Yes, Rudolfo) kept checking me out. Hm...Yeah. We talked to him for a while, ate dinner, talked a little more, went back to my house with stace and looked at the year book. HAH! Fun times. Went back to her house to drop her off, then I went home in a not so decent mood. Meh...It happens. It didn't help that worked SUCKED. I was so close to walking out. Kham expected me to run the fitting room BY MY SELF...process, run, and captain...and get it looking decent in FIFTEEN MINUTES. Yeah, maybe in FIFTEEN HOURS that thing would START looking decent. Whatever. AND pain in the ass customers wouldn't stop being pains in the ass! Anyway...It was a fun time. The next morning, I got up...got ready for the day...called stacey at 10, like she asked me to, and she was asleep. SO, Nick told me to call back in an hour. So I did. I called back, and she was still in bed...awake the WHOLE TIME...but in bed, not showered or dressed or anything...not like we had plans or anything. Whatever, Its ok to make other people wait, but when other people have to wait for you it must be okay right? right. (heh, no) We went out to lunch at Subway...Picked up Allicia, Stoped at Stacey's old house...Stole a hanger...drove past Josh's house...put it in reverse down the hill (go me) just so we could talk to him...I wish I didn't...cause he was being an ass anyway. He told me that Pat was sick of me. Hm...how sweet. :) I love men. I really do. It gives us women something to push against. Makes us stronger people, ya know? So yeah...Kept driving back to Stacey's where we saw ANDY! Havent seen that child in a while. lol, we stopped to say hi, he was mowing the lawn and couldnt get the mower to stop, so he dragged it over to us to talk. LOL...good times. Went back to stacey's. saw the ADORABLE ki-ens! Played xbox and then I went to work. FUN STUFF...really. (rolls eyes) THEN, Pawlowski and I went to the gas station to fill up, and sang random songs all the way to pat's house. It was cool to see some familiar faces that I hadn't seen in a while, but by the time I got there, they were playing poker, and I'm sure It would have been a blast had I known how to play, but I don't. Katie Sara and I went outside, I talked to pat, and then we left to take sara home. It was a fun night for the most part. :) On the way home from n. attleborro...katie and I talked about boys. lol. I miss shawn so much guys. SO MUCH. It's so different with him, because when he hugs you, you can tell its real...when he looks at you, you know hes looking at you, when you talk to him, you know he's listening, he makes you feel so good about yourself, and he really truly cares...and I miss that. I miss HIM. He's amazing. *Sigh* Men, who needs 'em. :D lol. jk. We went to McDonalds where Katie went through the drive through for me, cause I don't like doing that...LOL...and then we went to FRIENDLYS to see greg, and Rudolfo. Good times. I guess rudolfo said something to katie about me. He's like..."your friend is beautiful" heh, what a nice kid. He really is. Hes got the best smile might I add. (haha, by accident I typed "ass" instead of "add" lol...yeah...) OH YEAH! And our skunk story! LOL. There was a skunk in the middle of the road...so i stopped and waited for the damn thing to move. Katie goes "look at that dumb animal" and we sat there, and it still wouldnt move. I started creeping forward thinking that it would get the fuck out of my way...but NO. So katie reaches across infront of me and whales down on the horn for like five seconds. LMAO. It was the funniest thing that happened all night...all week actually. Good times ktw. I love you! Fun stuff. So yeah, I dropped katie off, went home, went to bed, you know this part, about going to pat's house. It's 10:25...I have to get ready for work, shop for kait's present...go to kaits house...and have an awesome time out till 11 again! WOO! I'm getting too old for all this partying. I was planning on cleaning my room for a little while today too, that way I could finish up my summer reading tomorrow...AND go down to the cape tomorrow...AND start my spanish summer reading tomorrow. heh. the procrastinators support group meeting has been postponed. Yep...definatly. Whatever. LOL. And monday, I've got that party to go to...lol...Liam's going away party. my oh my, everyone's going away. Pat, Steph, Erica, Rob, Liam, Kevin. Who else? geez. Leaving little ol' me behind at stupid ol' high school. W/e. LOL. la la la la la...I think that's all for now. Later gang! ~JSTEW~
Sunday, August 15, 2004
Just when you think things can't possibly get any worse, they do...when you think you've hit rock bottom, nope, you're wrong! You can still fall faster, farther, and harder. Just so you're aware of that...yeah. Such a horrible weekend. I don't even know what to say. What a scare...and a bit of disapointment to add to everything else. But it's okay, there was a blessing in disguise that my family and I are very greatful for...and you can't lose something you never had...and some things just arent to be...and there will be other oppertunities.
But on the brighter side of things, I had an awesome time with Tricia the other night, what awesome memories. :) YAY! And Liam and I have plans to hang out when I come back from camping. And camping! I'm going camping. That's something to look forward to right?? YAY! I'm dying to hear about Greg's stay.
I can't wait to hear from some people...I have so much to vent about. Oh boy.
I give you my love! -xoxo-
~Jstew~
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Hmm...I'm talking to Andrew...He told me that he's in college...but I don't believe him all of a sudden...He's way too young...he acts like a little kid. Plus, the numbers in his s/n are 2488. His birthday is February 4...and he said that he just likes the number 88...BULL SHIT! He told me that he's talking to me from math class, at college...and honestly, who thinks they'd be online talking to friends, their second day into their college career, thats right, no one. He wont tell me what school he goes to. He lives with his mom, and I know thats not completely unusual, but in this case, its evidence leading up to the fact that hes not in college. He's a sketchy kid...until I meet him, or have a reason to believe all this stuff that doesnt make sence to me...that's all I have to say. Anyway. Here's what the week looks like...Wednesday, today, lunch with Pat...then hang out with Jen...then work at 7. Thursday, tomorrow, work 1-6...then hang out with Andrew Johnson. Friday, day after tomorrow (lol), work 10-3...then hang out with Tricia...go to St. Rocco's...then dinner with mom, tracey, tricia, rachel, and rachel's mom! yay! Saturday...work from 11-4...then hang out with Josh. And I only have 7 dollars! Cause, silly me, I bought a phone cover for 21 bucks. My mom might be getting a job at the outlets cause my dads a beast. I can't believe the summer's almost over. :( NOOO, I dont want that to happen. I'm tired of typing. Later! ~Jstew
Sunday, August 8, 2004
New Journal! Most people I know have moved on from Deadjournal... eithther that or never had one. And in that case, I have created on here, so that we match! I still have my deadjournal account, so check em both out. Maybe I'll cut and copy my entries so that they'll be the same so that one journal wont be completely differnt than the other, we'll see. Today I worked...got off an hour later and Palowski and I went to Dunkies! Yay for Dunkies! It was awesome. :) And then Jen called! Haven't talked to her in a while, but we're hanging out soon, so thats good. :) And I'll be hanging out with Pat soon too. :) Greg's here! and a week from today I'm going to visit Andrew! How exciting! Then going to New York on the 20th through the 24th. Fun stuff! Anyway, we've only got a little while left before school starts, so call me up! And we'll hang out! YAY! :) Later! ~Jstew
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